Monday, March 26, 2012

he'll still come around

you have this bleak feeling
like you can never imagine
getting over this person
and carrying on

and your head knows you will
but your heart won't believe it
you're not willing to accept
that it's over, it's gone

you can't ever remember
a time gone before them
or anyone else
with such an impression

but you know that's not true
and that only before
you had all the same thoughts
of despondence, depression

and that this too shall pass
and there'll be better things
where there are no more doubts
or confusion

but you cannot believe
that this didn't work out
you want to turn back
and re-do them

but you know there will be
another one after this
more suited for you
and as hard as it is

you know to accept
greater things are to follow
one more step, getting closer
holding out for tomorrow

but even as I say this
i'm feeling deep down
that he made a mistake
and he'll still come around.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

behind this bright face

a wonderful world
puts the stars in my eyes
and people to love
are what makes me smile

yet behind the broad smile
a little girl hides
who struggles to trust
after you cast her aside

there are things that affect her
you know it, it's true
but she seems so together
when talking to you

then when you hang up
or when you press send
and go on your way
and call that the end

she sits there re-reading
and retracing the lines
of another heart broken
another one, for old times'

she eats lies for her breakfast
and pukes them at lunch
regurgitating sorrow
and meeting your punch

you're ripping her hair
and breaking her nails
and shoving her down
with your foot on her tail

when you spat in her face
and you turned the round table
she was trapped in that place
and for a while was unable

to see any light
except the glint in your eye
there was nothing to fight
say hello, wave goodbye

she gave up far too much
but it was not your mistake
it was her bad decision
and now it's too late

but hard times endured
no matter how bad
have taught me life lessons
and for that I am glad

yes I know what it is
to eat blatant cruel lies
and I know what it is
to burn deep inside

over someone I love
who's forgotten my name
who leaves me at home
goes out, plays the game

and I know what it is
to be true to myself
to pick myself up
and get down from that shelf

so I'll smile and I'll laugh
whilst I'm finding my place
but there's a girl that wears black
behind this bright face.

it's lonely in this city

It's lonely in this city
of 9 million people
from the depths of the gutter
to st pauls' and her steeple
the crowds around the edges
they shuffle in on you
and suffocate your senses
taking sunlight from your view
there are queues for the carriages
that takes you to the places
where you wander to find something
amongst streets of nameless faces
you're fighting for your place here
and fighting for your time
to be seen and held with meaning
instead of lost amongst the grime
you stand inches from a person
feeling life seep through their pores
but you cannot see their eyes there
and they look not in yours
you go for days and wonder
what if something came to pass
would someone question where I was
or would I disappear too fast
you might talk to strangers on the train
or to people in the park
but you get glances of concern
like what's her problem, what's this lark
so you give up being bothered
and you keep unto yourself
no point in causing unrest
'cause no one cares if you are well
just so long as you keep unto you
and look not upon another
it doesn't matter who you are
we are not one, we are not brothers
but we do all share this city
and we all walk on her paths
and we wander in her gardens
and we fill up all the cracks
and for all that's here within her
all the stories here of old
you have nothing but your name now
and a blanket from the cold
the winds they blow right through you
the rain runs of your cheek
the sun it slides down dreary
no one listens, you don't speak
but the cobbles of the pavement
echo plights gone once before you
there are streets of nameless faces
but a ghost to reassure you
the whispers of their history
comes through to you in waves
and tell you that your struggles
differ not from yesterday's
and for every man that's walked here
and every maiden cried
a part of you goes with them
a bit less lonely now, inside.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

and by then I will know

Whilst sitting and waiting
my hope is abating
and I'm starting to see
that this isn't for me
that all of my schemes
all my plans and my dreams
won't be found on this path
so I turn and head back
to the place where I know
where I come and I go
to mull my life over
to reflect and get closer
and the more that I try
the less I will die
with a burden inside
and with tears left to cry
so I'll keep doing this
and the thing that will stick
won't ever let go
and by then I will know.

Monday, March 12, 2012

i kiss your cheek

Behind stone walls
is where you hid
Expressionless face
A stoic lid
Now I'm not there
You've been outbid
I did love you
And you loved me
We did have that
We do, you see
The one for you
Will end the seek
Remember me
I kiss your cheek
x

un nouveau jour...

Les reves fondu
Les plans changent
Et puis c'est vous
Et maintenant

Sur votre chemin
Avant, avant
Tout ira bien
Et vous etes bon

Demain, demain
Un nouveau jour
Demain, demain
C'est tout alors!

Thursday, March 8, 2012

walking away

I know you are there
I can see you, you know
I know you keep coming
Just to check if I've gone
Well yes I'm still here
And I'm standing alone
But what does it matter
It's over and done
There were secrets
Unhidden
They've changed many things
Or maybe things weren't
Quite what they had seemed
There are so many things
That I'm wanting to say
But what is the point
We ended that day
You were definitely different
I had a gut feeling
Now I'll lay on the floor
And I'll stare at the ceiling
Hollow inside
With my tears slipping out
I have nothing to whisper
And nothing to shout
Another string to my bow
Another line to my song
I'm heartbroken now
But it won't be for long
The memories we share
I can view as I like
You can't take them back
They're locked up inside
But the essence of us
It burst at the seams
Now we're fading away
Like yesterday's dreams
So I know you're still there
I can see you, you see
But it suddenely occurred…
You're not waiting for me
I'm only a fool
And you're one and the same
As you stood there and watched me
Walking away.