Wednesday, February 29, 2012

so that you can feel

you need to feel lost
so that you can feel found
you need to feel alone
to know that love is around
you need to feel pain
so that you can feel soothed
you need to feel stressed
to know that you can be moved

you need to feel dark
so that you can feel light
you need to feel defeat
to know you can fight
you need to feel humbled
so that you can feel proud
you need to be silent
to hear your voices scream loud

you need to feel confused
so that you can see clear
you need to feel scared
to know when you're near
you need to feel deep
so that you feel alive
you need to give out
so you light up inside.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

a melting pot of revelry

In salty streams
your tears run down
off cheek, down chin
they reach the ground
You laugh to cry
and smile to frown
you're looking up
from sitting down
Your fears and dreams
burst at the seams
inevitably
you'll soon break free
Have faith in you
and you will see
your life will be
what it will be
A melting pot
of revelry.

Monday, February 20, 2012

a love for all seasons

There are seasons in life
The physical seasons
where nature dies off
replenishes
and then blooms again
And we as humans have
the same
on our own schedule
there are dark phases in life
where joy is lost
and everything is limp
grey, and dead inside
it's cold
it's uncomfortable
damp and unforgiving
you need to take extra care
of yourself
to stay warm
to wrap up tight
against prevailing winds
but in these dark times
we can also be replenished
we can hibernate
retreat
wrap up
and succumb
our skin is protected
we are cocooned
we can embrace the dark
of the night
and feel it's depth
it's solidness
anchoring us to the earth
driving us in
just like the fallen
soggy, and decomposing
leaves of summer...
back to where we came from
giving in
to the pressure and the demands
crumbling...
only to soon be born again.
In the springtime.
New buds will form
there's a freshness in the air
a new colouring
pastels, becoming brighter...
until full bloom
and glory once more.
We need to ride the waves
embrace the change
be part of the cycle
unchallenging.
Accepting.
With a love for all seasons.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

there are days

There are days when I don't get dressed
I splash my face with cold water
and I stay in pink pyjamas
the smell of yesterday's sun lotion on my chest
and my hair is a mess
and I'm in the green t-shirt that I took when I left

I drink hot tea and sit at small makeshift tables
And I stare at my notebook and I pour out words
And I gaze through the window
At the clouds and the birds
At the dust on the cobwebs and the rain falling down
There's nothing to feel and nothing to sound

And the leaves of the trees hang heavy with dew
And they remind me of me
And now I am thinking of you
And I glance in the mirror
And I see a pale face
Shadowed green eyes, I hold their stark gaze

I lean back in my seat
When my tea is lukewarm
I ache for the sun, but I don't mind the storm
And I gaze at the sky thinking why, oh why
If this is it 'til the day that I die
You won't hear me laugh, and you won't see me cry.

the rain

Listen to the rain
Twinkle tinkles falling down
A white noise that soothes you
An ethereal sound

Dance in the rain
Feel the mud under feet
Find the place, the air's pure
The caress of your cheek

Touch the earth in the rain
Pungent fragments, and smells
That fill up your senses
And make you feel well

Monday, February 13, 2012

for all that you know

I don't care if
you're bloody confused
feelings come as they come
and they go when they choose

so suck it right up
and open your eyes
There's a whole world before you
Count the stars in the skies

we won't last forever
nothing ever does
but it will be a memory
this history of us

and who can fault history
or say it's not true
if it happens in thoughts
then what can you do

moments are fleeting
and lifetimes they pass
don't worry for tomorrow
hold today in your grasp

and maybe I'll hurt you
or you will hurt me
but we'll deal with that then
like the tides of the sea

today's almost over
so it's now or it's not
because for all that you know
this day is your lot.

it's me and it's you

Have I mucked it up as I always do?
You know who you are
You know that it's you
Or maybe you don't
And maybe it's me
I'm trapped in my thoughts
Like a nail in a tree
That leaves a deep mark
And sucks out my life
Will you be there to catch me
Will I fall on the knife?
The perpetual cycle
Of the give and the take
You're pulling your hair
You scream FOR GOD'S SAKE
You catch their eye knowing
You smile and it's true
That we've both met our match
It's 'me' and it's 'you'.

just another grain of sand

This great burden of aspiration
Has started to affect my concentration
And all of the things that I want to achieve
Are clouded and blurry and my heart's on my sleeve
Getting dusty and chipped and picking up stains
And my head aches with thoughts and the tears and the strains
That soon it will pass and I will be left in the dust
There'll be no one to hear me and no one to trust
That the best things in life have now passed me by
If I chase my tail for too long do you think I could die?
Might I choke on the words of unwritten dreams
Or lie in the dark and silently scream
Obsessively scribbling down lists "I should do"
Then waste away hours with worry for you
And stress about numbers and negative signs
If I tell myself "no," or it's too high to climb
Then nothing will come and nothing will go
I'll stay on the porch, swaying to swaying fro
Looking out at the world with a wall at my back
Not going forward but not stepping back
Stagnant and stinking in a pit of despair
There are bugs on my feet and dust in my hair
But no one to notice as they all have a life
Invested in triumphs and blinded by strife
And the great irony is that the more that I think
I'm making a difference, but do nothing but blink
It's all here within me and going no where
Because I plan far too much and I worry and care
That if I don't produce something that validates me
I'm just another grain of sand drifting into the sea...?