it begins all again

You can be so happy
that you get all afraid
That what fills you up
could be taken away
So you worry and fret
that this joy that you feel
Is as good as it gets
or it might not be real
And this worry you have
it can make you feel weak
Like dark clouds overhead
you start to feel bleak
You move a lot slower
and your voice now is low
Your view of the world
doesn't have the same glow
This darkness it grips you
and you start to now be
So consumed by its grasp
that you need to break free
It's pulling and tugging
a fight deep within
Then something now breaks
tears roll off your chin
The shadows they lift
the sun's out again
The fear has now gone
this wasn't the end
So you pick yourself up
more love now to send
And then the whole cycle
begins all again.

I remember there's birds

And after all that we've done

After all we've been through

I still catch my breath

As I'm looking at you

It makes me feel warm

And I curl up my toes

And my tummy feels light

And I wrinkle my nose

I could be stood in the middle

Of the busiest street

Amongst all the traffic

With no shoes on my feet

But I wouldn't notice

And I wouldn't care

Because I'm feeling the sun

And I'm breathing the air

And in that little moment

When you say those 3 words

I remember there's flowers

I remember there's birds.

to live out our dreams

I said goodbye to you tonight

Walked paths of leaves and fallen dreams

I no longer hold you tight

I'm not bursting at the seams

Now I'm empty and I'm void

My expiry date has passed

But this wasn't meant for ever

It wasn't meant to last

I wandered down a road

And had found me in this place

The same is held within

But now I wear a different face

A silent undercurrent

That carries thoughts away

And leaves marks along the banks

Like the ripples on the bay

My time here now has reached an end

I'd said I'd know it when

I'd finished all I had to do

And would return again

Under a watchful London Eye

You're not with me in this place

But I know you're by my side

In the light I see your face

So I'll leave you in the Autumn

And you'll meet me in the spring

I'm coming home to you

To share our life and live our dreams 

what I see now is us

When I look in your eyes

I don't see you

I don't see depth

I don't see blue

I don't see lips

So full, so true

I don't see love

Or the fragrance of you

Doesn't fill up my senses

And make me feel weak

Reaching up for your hand

As you're stroking my cheek

I don't see a man

That's learned of life's knocks

And ridden the waves

Recovered from shocks

I don't see a man who's given himself

To make my life be

Full of love

And of wealth

The wealth of another

To have them complete

By your side on your path

Or sitting on the same seat

I don't see a man

With a generous heart

Who won't let me guess

Who won't let me part

But sat waiting for me

And making things clear

I was loosing myself

As I always was here

And I don't see a man

Who shared the same dream

And saw the same face

And pulled the same seam

What I see is a man 

Who makes my heart beat

Who makes my lungs fill

Who makes me complete

My visions a blur

My thoughts are a buzz

It's not you that I see

What I see now is us.

that will not go

Living out the love songs

Read between the lines

Every time my heart beats

Every clock that chimes

It counts another moment

It finds another place

Where your eyes will meet with mine

Where your hands are on my face

And we sleep with bodies touching

Wrapped around with arms and legs

And your nose rests on my temple

And my mind is full of dregs

That are slowly leaving off now

And leaving us alone

New beginnings made together

Another half that will not go.

a new life to live

When I'm with you
The rest disappear
They slip far away
With the stroke of my ear
And your hand on my cheek
You're cupping my face
And holding me close
Anchored into this place
And it's not about land
Or constellations in the sky
It's having you near
And being there by your side
And without the words
I know what you feel
Your lips they are mine
And your kisses I steal
And the more that I take
The more that you give
There were lives once before
And a new life to live.

what it is

We know what we want
We know we want this
And now we can grieve
For days that we missed
Spent wandering around
And trying new things
And making mistakes
And making new dreams
And going in circles
And finding the line
And finding our truth
And finding the time
To only discover
It always was this
And we know now for sure
What it is we would miss... x